On Monday morning at yoga, old mate snored in savasana again. Now, for the non-Australian readers ‘old mate’ refers to any older man of undetermined name. It’s not unkind. It’s just a thing we do. I don’t know this man’s name but I avoid putting my mat anywhere near him in the afternoons due to olfactory inundation, and in the mornings due to the infernal snoring. That morning I was on the other side of the room and the snoring was loud and pretty much immediate as soon as savasana started.
I don’t know why but it does my head in! The rule-loving part of me wants to scream ‘conscious relaxation, fuckwit’ but that wouldn’t be very yoga of me.
Seriously, by now I should be able to consciously relax my way through 5 minutes of savasana even if there’s a jackhammer going off outside. Surely?
Some people don’t like swear words, some people don’t like the word moist. I don’t like the sound of snoring. It grosses me out! It triggers the shit out of me and that’s childhood stuff I am working through. (My husband’s snoring doesn’t bother me which is a fun little weird side note.)
As happens far too often to be a coincidence, the podcast that began on the way home from work that day was entitled “The Power of Letting Go” and yep, I got the message loud and clear. We don’t have to react to every trigger? Even if it’s our pet hate! Who knew?
Apparently we can let go of anything we want? wow… Now when you read this you’re probably thinking ‘well d’uh of course you can let go of anything’ but that’s not what most of us were taught growing up. I constantly heard my elders complaining about the same things all the time and thought that was just what you did. So when old mate (see what I did there…) on the podcast said ‘You can just let things go, you don’t have to focus on them or talk about them.’ I was like ‘holy crap, wow, yeah!’
So I’m going to stay in savasana until the end next Monday and I’m not going to react to snoring guy. Hell, I might even put my mat right by his on Wednesday so I can learn to ignore the stale sweat smell.
No, no I won’t.
Did you set your new moon intentions. Over the past few months I’ve been working on letting go of that which no longer serves. Little things like getting triggered by snoring and fear of being homeless (wtf?). That’s some extreme garbage that’s been banging about in my psyche. A month ago I vowed to reduce my social media use and that has been a huge relief.
If I’m honest, the prompt to get off social media came from the realisation that all the time I spent ‘marketing’ my book on social media in May and June returned very little on that ‘investment’ of time. I keep telling myself we don’t eat the fruit on the day we plant the tree but we do have to be prudent about how much marketing is required.
My intention for this new moon is simple. To focus on self-care and spiritual growth. That feels nice.