On a podcast this morning, I listened to Ruth Soukup talking about her book and coaching programme Do It Scared. She described her trademark fear archetype assessment. She had me at questionaire! I love filling out surveys that give me a simplistic answer to all the things that are wrong with me!

After she described the first couple of their seven archetypes, with each one I was thinking ‘yep, that’s me.. wow, I am so messed up because all of these are me...’ but then she got to “The Outcast” and hit the nail on the head. I am quite the “People Pleaser”, too, despite what my mother would tell you.

It’s worrying how accurate pop psychology can be…

I come across as fearless and unfazed by what others think, but that’s not true. I am full of fear and terrified of what others think of me and my work, but strangely that doesn’t stop me from doing it. It might stop me from having a book launch or putting my face in the paper, but it doesn’t stop me from writing the book!


Speaking of the book, Amazon have really surprised me and sorted out the problem I have had at least for new clients who have bought my book. I am still not sure what to do about clients who originally bought the book and then wanted to buy it again or update their edition. I have also been called a ‘bad publisher’ by a very forthright and typically anonymous person on KDP Community. Apparently if you need to update your manuscript because you find errors you are a bad publisher.

To be fair, my novel was ‘published’ way before it was ready so okay, I’ll own up to the ‘bad publisher’ tag. Literally anyone can publish (almost) anything on Amazon and it makes me sad to think that I was one of those bad self-publishers that the whole industry look bad. Perhaps Amazon needs to limit the number of updates that ebooks can have? That would certainly have slowed my roll in that area.


So the fear of rejection hasn’t stopped me from writing or publishing, here or on Amazon, but it does keep me playing small. As I wrote previously, I struggle with the idea of putting my face out there on employers or club websites. Friends keep suggesting that I do a talk about Paris at the local library and feature my novel Hotel Deja Vu. I’d probably rather go to the dentist than do that. It’s not a fear of public speaking per se; I can (and have) get up and talk in front of hundreds of people. I’ve sung and danced in front of hundreds of people so I am still trying to unpack why I won’t go and speak to say, 20 people, at the library or organise a proper book launch. I am an enigma wrapped in an weirdo.

Oh wait, it could be because I don’t think my work is good enough. That old chestnut. BORING! Still doesn’t stop me from writing!


Pics below are from my local area. Morning walk and afternoon bike ride and swim. #livingthedream


Feature Photo by Leio McLaren (@leiomclaren) on Unsplash

3 Replies to “Do it Scared”

  1. C i am sorry i am replying through email but i have tried several times to „like“ etc through wordpress and it chucks a spazzy with me – yeah i know that created a new word 😳. Anyway just! Had to say -‚you have to do it! – the library thng 🤞. I was just picking up book today and noticed on advert on librarian desk -‚meet an author‘ 🙏 – yup i thought C should do this – 😜. See the universe speaks ……. what have you got to lose – you already survived the bd publisher rant. And who doesnt enjoy a bit of Paris during the day. You may even spice up someones life as they contemplate would they do it differently 😜. My Georgraphy teacher would now be yelling out his fav saying “go forth and multiply Christine’. Xx

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