Que sera, sera ~ Doris Day.
Nope, Doris. What will be will not necessarily be.
Just as our triumphant return from the hero’s journey or even our return home from work is not guaranteed, hopes and affirmations won’t get shit done.
At the risk of becoming a member of the Church of Jim Carrey here’s another pearler from him.
Faith, maybe, a plan and daily work. You have to show up, roll up your sleeves and get it done.
I probably knew this before this year. My motto when I was making art for designers was ‘Inspiration is for amateurs, the professionals just turn up and start working’. I didn’t invent that any more than I’ve invented my pithy phrase above, (Pithy is a fun word to say. Sounds like a drunk person with a lisp…) but I did embody it.
This year I’ve smashed out nearly 200 posts on this blog and a bunch more over at Medium, two first drafts, a novella of questionable quality and hundreds of pages of word vomit in my journals. I did that.
I feel so proud of that!
I feel different because of this, I am different. Making paintings NEVER made me feel good about myself; I just felt more inadequate by the day.
I’m unpacking that, slowly.