I love New Year’s Resolutions but then I make new month resolutions and new week resolutions. I make them and for the most part, I keep them. I don’t want to have any (more) regrets. When Mary Oliver asks…
what is it you plan to do
With your one wild and precious life?
My answer is everything.
I used to wonder if my drive to achieve came from deep-seated feelings of inadequacy. The answer was probably yes, but I feel driven, now even more so, after doing all kinds of healing on those limiting beliefs.
Which is why it was weird that I spent the last few weeks telling myself I don’t need to chase any more dreams other than writing. ‘Just write your books,’ my inner Mama has been saying to me. ‘Don’t go chasing waterfalls,’ says that inner voice, the one pretending to offer me a little TLC but is really fear speaking.
I was letting myself off without a warning. I was giving myself a pass, time off for good behaviour. Rewarding myself for playing small with extra helpings of insignificance.
So I wasn’t at all surprised when Dr Lennox, the astrologer I follow, said this was something to do with one of the planets hanging about in the sign of Cancer, the mother. My inner mama was kissing my forehead and telling me I didn’t have to strive. I could have a rest, let myself off the hook.
My real mum has always done this, which I guess is what mums are supposed to do. She never understood really understood my… well she never really understood me, until I started writing.
And yes… I am constantly reminding myself that we are human beings not human doings.
I also know that we are given a limited time here on this plane to do all the things and I want to do all the things. We never know when the buzzer is going to sound!
So I am putting myself back on the hook as that planet, whichever it was, moves out of Cancer and into Aquarius, the action sign and something to do with Mercury’s midpoint and Mars going direct. (Dr Lennox will give you the actual info. His Red Robe Astrology moments on Instagram are so good!)
What will you do with this one wild and precious life?